Dec 12

Monday Musing: Why?

Why?  I probably have asked myself that question more times than I would like to admit.  Why did this happen?  Why did I not do that?  Why can things not go just the way that I want them to go?  Why do I get stuck on why?  Then I realize that I need to take a step back from the situation and realize that life is not all about me.  I believe that is probably the toughest thing in this world, and the older I get the more I realize that alot of the people that I come in contact with everyday are only thinking about themselves.
question mark

Just the other day I was driving home from work in a hurry like everybody else when I hit a traffic jam on the highway.  Now the main road I take to get home is a highway and when it backs up I know that I am going to be in for a long trip home.  Well, on this particular highway there are three lanes and the rightmost lane has several turnoffs, which can back up that lane.  Now, I take my time and eventually merge about a mile from the street that I need to get off I get in line and slowly inch my way forward waiting for my turn to take the off ramp.  The minutes past as the line slowly inches forward and the next thing I know two cars are driving to pass everybody on the shoulder.  They barely get by the people that try to block them by driving into the grass and passing people, seeing their success more people start trying the same maneuver. The line is moving even slower now.  Luckily a semi-truck driver puts his entire rig on the shoulder and blocks the way.  After a few more minutes I eventually reach the street that I need and make my way home.  After I get over my mini-episode of road rage thinking how can they be that insensitive to everybody else who wanted to get home.  I really wanted to tell those people that they are not that important that everybody else in line must wait longer because they are stuck in traffic.
Road Rage

I bring this up because today I got what should have been wonderful news, but instead of celebrating it with my love ones. I immediately started thinking that this is not exactly what I wanted.  Why can’t things just go the way that I want it to?  Why is life so unfair?  I started having a pity party for myself, which was just plain dumb.  It took me a lot longer than it should have to get over myself and remember that God has a plan and it is foolish for me to think that I should know better.  I ended up acting no different than those people on the highway that thought they did not need to wait in line.  It is amazing how one day I can be mad at somebody for doing something and then a few days later I end up doing the same thing.  Learning to stop being so self-centered seems to be a problem, but like they say the first step is admitting that there is a problem.

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1 comment

  1. freda phillips

    Oh Kenny, don’t beat yourself up. Everybody has those feelings from time to time. Remember my favorite word EXPECTATIONS it is frustrating when other people don’t act in the way we expect. No wonder children grow up to be rude, when parents act the way they do sometimes. Concentrate on the people who do right. Usually we just look and remember the ones that do the wrong thing and that frustrate us. Lets see what is the name of that book that I need to listen to so badly “Don’t sweat the small stuff” (It seems to me someone in my family gave that to me one time) I try not to let that bother me. lol

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